Repentance to Zion

Shabbat Shalawam and much Siloam family. I have a confession to every last member of the house of Yashar'el. I have sought to make peace with the Most High, and He has promised to restore me if I will repent of my wrong to you.

I will do my best to communicate to you the genuineness of my heart, but I know that the only true apology is in action. This is part of my action in letting you know who I was, who I am, and what I will be doing my best to do.

The Most High began to deal with me at a very deep level awhile ago. At this time I was dealing with a lot of generational curses, and many of the devils I worshipped turned against me. The Most High gave many revelations that are being confirmed today. He gave so many of them that I cannot comprehend the number that is fulfilled every day. He made it so that entire periods of my life are like deja vu. He made it so that certain people I come across, and videos I watch, and emotions I feel, and whatsoever I read is like deja vu. He told me these things before, but in my sin, I didn't believe him.

He once allowed me to walk with Christ in a vision and allowed me to see his shape, but not His face. He allowed me to approach His throne in the vision, but I mocked and I blasphemed in the sight of the Most High. I mocked every last word, every last angel, every last revelation. He knew what I would do, He knew my pride, and I have no idea why He even allowed me to go before Him. I walked with Christ, but I angered Him. He showed me what He showed Enoch in the book of Moses chapter 7. I angered him so much when He only wanted to love me and have me love Him.

Christ showed me the condemnation of the sinners and would have shown me the salvation of the righteous. I saw the death of the wicked and sorrow filled my heart. How could the Most High be happy after knowing the fate of the wicked? I refused to let Yashaya comfort my heart. I was prideful, and I did not understand the one I worshipped. My filth kept me from seeing the salvation of the elect until recently. The Father set a curse upon me by the power of the Holy Ghost through His only begotten son. This was the curse,

Until you set aside your pride, and become as a child you shall not see my face and neither shall you see my son.

That curse fell upon me in the year 2017. I who had once found favor in the sight of the Father had been left to Azazel and my own religion. I was not Christian, though I thought like one. I was not yet Hebrew, though I tried to walk like one. I was left to Azazel and found myself in heavy condemnation. I did not know how to live my life and was afraid to break the Torah. I found myself isolated, afraid, puffed up, and hateful. I did not want to admit these things as my reality, but they were. I lost many friends and family.

I was blind. Azazel told me that if I would read but a little more, then I would find peace. He gave me my own heaven and promised me that I would have friends and family if I would just have faith and read just a little bit more. He made it so that every little decision I made cause my heart to tremble.

Do not do this, or you will go to hell. Do not eat this or you will go to hell. Do not this, nor that, neither the other thing.

But I did not know that these sayings were nothing more than that of a scribe and pharisee spirit. I was being raised up in the was of Mahan, after the ways of Cain. I was a cursed and fearful 16-year-old boy. This took place until 2019 after the Most High Ahayah unsealed the Book of Mor by Ha'Mashiach and Big Judah. After the Book of Mor was unsealed, the curse was slowly unlifted. It was spring break in my senior year of high school, and I was with my mom's side of the family. The son of the Most High came to me after the image of my dad and said this to me concerning my fear:

Just stop it! Do you not know that my Torah is life.

My understanding was loosed and I understood that the Torah was a guiding principle in how we are supposed to live our lives. The Most High then chased Azazel away, and after that week my life was restored.

Months later, the Most High unsealed the Pearl of Great price by elder Ahyal. I purchased a copy, and then the Most High broke down the leprosy precepts. It led me to the book of Moses chapter 7. I read the chapter, and then the Most High made me remember the curse. He showed me how Enoch responded to seeing the wicked being condemned. Enoch was so sorrowful that he forgot what happiness was. Enoch went as far as how to say how could the Most High be happy seeing the fate of the wicked. The Most High used Yashaya to comfort Enoch, and told Enoch to look at the righteous. He obeyed the Most High and eternal joy restored His soul. I remembered how I reacted and the Earthly Mother convicted me. I repentedd of my sin, and shortly after my life began to be restored.

I was beginning to see again. That heavy darkness was being removed, and recently I received another vision.

In the vision I was at my job with some Elders of One Nation One Power. I work in retail, and my job is at a rather small pet store. Everyone was in the backroom where we receive shipments and keep extra items. It was there that Ahyal was ministering to us all concerning marriage. The elders stood around him, and in front of him stood pairs of men and women waiting to be joined in marriage. I was at the back with this woman I didn't know. By the time it was my turn to recieve the service Elder Ahyal stopped the service and left the backroom. He left to the sales-floor, which is where the customers usually stay at. My "fiance" and I sat there a little confused and I thought that it would be best if I just kissed her and let the service be done. Before I did anything He walked back in and said,

You may not kiss the bride, and you may not lie with her. You may not get some.

The "fiance" was upset, but I told her to suffer it to be so for a time. Ayhal grabbed some items of food from the back to put out on the sales floor. Many of the Elders were following him, and some of the couples did as well. He had two carts full of items. I followed him wanting to help, and at some point took it upon myself to grab one of the carts and asked if he needed any help. He rebuked me and said that the Holy Spirit didn't need my help. He said,

The Holy Spirit doesn't need your help. She needs you to go into the backroom and hep Jacob on the internet.

I went into the back room, and it was pretty empty except for a few people. My laptop was perched on a table by the garage door. It was then that I heard elder Ahyal's voice speaking almost telepathically. It was like the Father was coming to me using his voice so I could understand the tone that He wanted to convey in a way that I could comprehend.

You wish to find a woman and fulfill your duty as a man. Know that if you obey the commandments, and focus on this duty of helping Jacob on the internet, that you shall find the true form of masculinity. If you shall do this then you shall see the salvation of the elect, you shall see the face of the Father, and you shall see only begotten of the Father, and you shall see the salvation of your soul.

I couldn't help but cry, because the Father knows how much sorrow has filled my soul after the Ruach Ha'Qodesh. He knows how much I wished to see the Son again, to walk with Him again, and to be before the Father again. He knows that I wanted to follow the example of my fathers and show honor and respect to the Spirits if He would do so.

It was in this vision that the Most High, the Father of Light, taught me something about grace that boggled me. He is not like Azazel. Azazel knew about my blasphemies, and whenever he would visit me and pretend to be Jesus, he would always give me a look of disdain. He never explained why he hated me so much in his heart. I was afraid to ask him because I thought it was nothing more than the wrath of Christ. I was afraid that my asking would cause more disrespect than I had caused.

The Father of Light, when He gave me a true understanding of His Christ; the Chist that the scriptures testify of, he wants to talk about your offenses. He wants to talk about it so that you can not only repent, but find the cause of your sin. He wants to talk to you so He can point out your lusts and temptations. He wants us to love him for who he is, so we can love the Father in a parallel way. He loves us for who we are. Do not take these words ill, because when I say this I mean he loves us as the soul who abhors sin. He loves us as the children of light. If you sin, he will immediately rebuke you and chasten you, but he will also help you take the steps in repenting of your sin.

If you are in a relationship, and you want it to work, wouldn't you work things out? If we are supposed to develop a relationship with Ahaya, wouldn't He be chiefest in setting that example? Isn't this why He sent prophets and seers to our fathers day and night, morning and evening, winter and spring, summer and fall? All of the carnage, the rebuking, the chastening, the thundering and plagues, all just to say I love you. Isn't this all just to say:

Ahaya once shared a lot of knowledge and understanding with me, but because I sinned He did not permit me to retain it all. Within the past year, until the day of my baptism, I have been given note to put to video. Things that I need to share, but I didn't. I have kept these precepts from the family because of procrastination and fear of man. Zion, I apologize. Know that if the Most High would permit me to share that little bit which I have, I will share it with you.

I have tried to put youtube video links in some of my posts, but the post button doesn't seem to work if I try to write in the same post as the video.