My story and testimony

I want to say my turmoil started after my mother passed away when I was 12. She was the backbone and the most important person in my life and up until then, my life was perfect. She and her boyfriend was murdered by her ex-fiancé 4 days before Christmas and since then, December has never been the same. I stop celebrating holidays especially that one. This was before I knew the truth. Since then I have been trying to stay focus and finish school. I played basketball and ran track up until college. I felt this kept me out of trouble. But I didn’t have the support and love I needed from family from my fathers side because they viewed me and my brothers as black sheep and outsiders since we weren’t raised the same lifestyles as my cousins and other family. They were more academically gifted and was always in the Bible and in church. They went to meetings and Bible bowls and was seen as perfect. We were more athletic and only attended church on Sundays . Fast forward after graduating high school (after being told I would drop out) I moved back to my home in maryland with my grandmother on my moms side who was our rock and cared for us unconditionally. Then I was searching for a reason why I was brought here on Earth and never could find it. I urged for true love or someone to love me. I entered into multiple relationships trying to find someone who was going to love me. Countless relationships, unsuccessfully ended due to cheating, them not wanting to be with me , or me leaving because I was tired. I always viewed myself as a woman who was a care giver and someone who would cherish my man in a relationship. I’ve search the wrong people for this . I got involved with an alcoholic who didn’t show this until later in the relationship. After having my first child , I seen we couldn’t have a successful relationship because of his drinking and jealousy. The secone I felt very shameful because this one was one I thought was true. The man I was involved with was married and I never knew. He lured me , wined and dined me until I ended up pregnant with my second child with him. I didn’t find out the lie until I was 4 months in. Devastated and betrayed, I continued to live and prepare for this child I was expecting. The devil was working on me. Around this time my grandmother was on her dying bed and I was carrying so much on my shoulder between tending to her my first child, pregnant and working. I wanted to die. I wanted God to take me because I was alone, I wasn’t loved. The person who also cared for me was passing away at my home and my life continued to go down. Months later my grandmother passed I was involved in a devastating accident. I was rear ended by a tractor trailer and daughter was in the back seat fractured her femur and I was induced and had my baby. Alone again. Depression hit harder this time. Taking care of others , still unwed and no one loved me. Searched the wrong hearts for love. Trying to jump into relationships after relationships hoping someone will make me theirs. Depression was still there. I was recommended medication but kept refusing it any chance I had. I had now joined the truth but my heart wasn’t in it fully. I would only go to worship on Saturdays an hour away from me but I wasn’t fully aware. fast forward 2020, the devil was working on me. I got evicted from my home, lost my job and my car. All because I still wasn’t focused on the truth. I moved back to NC with my dad until I was able to get back on my feet. I got a job, new apartment and got my car back. I was still searching for love and wanted a ring on my finger. I jumped to quick and met a guy I thought was the one. This escalated very quickly. I didn’t know who I was dealing with. This man was ex marine and I was not aware that these men have mental problems from their tours. He was also married before and cheated very heavily on his ex wife while they was together and never paid for it. He was a very jealous man. He took my phone on mutriple occasions reading messages that were before we we together and reading comments on my social media pages that were very harmless and was very abusive to me about it. He choked me a day before my birthday and had me scared for my life since then. We argued countless nights to the point where I was going to work tired and sleeping in the bathroom stales. He kept tabs on me made sure I dont talk to any males at work no matter what. He had people there watch me . It got so bad I had to quit my job because it was toxic . I became pregnant and wanted to give my child away because of the relationship and the fact that I didn’t want to be a single mother of 3 and unwed again. I listen to the Elder for quite some time before him and he didn’t like me listening to him because he yelled too much and didn’t believe that he was a man of God, ignoring his ignorance I continue to listen to Elder Ahyal because I wanted my soul saved as well as my children’s souls. Fearing for my life One morning I believe the holy spirit woke my youngest up who is very clingy to sit on my lap while this man tried to abuse me. Being that she was up , he didn’t do it. Then I heard a voice tell me to call my father. That spirit told my father to call and he came over and saved my life. He stayed with me until the man took his stuff and left. After leaving him I felt better about myself, I had the evil energy leave my household, and I felt safer than ever. I didnt sleep in my bed for months until I got into the truth more and prayed more. Since ONOP, I have had a better feeling about myself, I have prayed more for my children and I to walk in the truth and keep the Most High in our hearts. I’ve welcomed the Holy Spirit into my house my life , my children’s life. I have had some mishaps such as losing my car and not getting approved for a new place to live . I am currently waiting on my husband who ever he is to come find me and marry me. It’s been my dream to be married and to take care of him as it said in the book. i know this is a long story but I have came a long way. Now I am 27 currently pregnant with my boy I asked advice from the Elder whether to keep him or give him up, he advice me to raise my child and so I am preparing for his arrival. Just want a man to help me as well. But until then I am currently still praising the Most High, listening to Elder Ahyal , and enjoying his blessings. ONOP has been the most wonderful ministry I have been apart of. Here I can understand the Elder on what he is talking about and feel the energy of the Holy Spirit. The yelling is much needed to get his point across. He speaks of authority and knowledge. I love how the family participates in the messages and doesn’t judge you for what you say. This is my testimony. I love ONOP Thanks be to the Most High for bringing the truth to me and continuing to work on me and my well being!